bornconfused's Blog

Trust is a funny subject to me because my idea of trust can be tottally different from someone else's idea of what trust is and maybe that's why there's a lot of broken trust between people.

Trust to me is based on being real to the other person, not do anything that may hurt them or put them down to make yourself feel better, not going behind someone's back. But being all this isn't easy and i'm far from having all this qualities but i try everyday to get better and be better. There's a quote that i love which is ' Trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken but you can still see the crack in the reflection'. It's true if someone hurts you and brakes your trust even if you wanna forgive that person or even if you do forgive them it's never the same because the trust isn't there anymore.

I don't know why i chose this subject i guess i am hurt because someone broke the trust we had, the sad thing is that i actually believed we were grate mates and told this person stuff that i never told anyone.

When do we actually know someone? Do we ever get to know people fully?

the answer to this questions? I don't have it but if someone does please be my guest i would love to figure those one's out. All there is left to do is move on and realise that's the way life goes and at some point we all get hurt one way or another we just have to learn how do we go from there and how we can move on and learn to trust people again!

Why is silence so loud? Why is silence something everyone runs away from? Maybe it's because like p!nk says the silence speaks the truth and sometimes the truth is something we can't handle. Which is why i myself run away from it, if i'm by myself i keep myself busy doing anything i can find so i don't have to sit down and actually see how messed up my life is and how i am the one making it this miserable. My worst fear is becoming one of those people who have the need to control everyting but the truth i am in fact becoming one of them, and don't know how to stop because i don't want to sit in the silence and listen!!!

When you lose someone you trully love it feels like the ground sweeps off your feet, like nothing else matters, like everything has no meaning after all. Saying goodbye is the hardest thing to do and we tend to do it with a smile on our faces pretending that we are strong and that our life will go on with no scars. But it doesn't work that way sometimes a little bit of ourselves dies along with that person you feel empty, lonely. I found out that it's best to express ourselves instead of keeping it locked inside as it eats you from the inside out and instead of feeling better you feel even more lonely. Writting was the way i found to griefe and it was the best thing that could've happened to me finding my joy in writting and how it keeps me sane. Wish everyone would express themselves we would be a lot happier and open. By sharing stories and how we feel we find out that a lot people went or are going through the same that we are and it makes you feel less lonely and a bit easier to cope!